Things happened and they make us grow.
Last year was truly a year of struggling to rest, one thing after another hit me, badly probably.
The question becomes: what has gone wrong?
Well I wud think circumstances was very MEAN to me,ppl r juz irritating.
But hey, it wasn't totally abt others! But thr is smthg for me to learn/excel!
One fine day, enjoyin 'frog porridge', I was told "ppl won't do (bad) things without any triggers"
Ppl won't be mean to me without being provoked wit my conscious/unconscious actions.
I thot abt it and agreed wit that.lack of wisdom (to discern the situation/doing the right thing)
Yet I conquered 2008 gloriously,havin become much restful than ever.
I've learnt much abt consequences of what we ever do too. To accept it,grow/excel and move on. I called it, facing the reality. (Well,I used to be sm1 who can't face reality)
Thr is a beautiful thing abt us compared to ppl in the world, we have Jesus wit His gift of no condemnation, even whn ppl seem to give up on us/condemn us, Jesus NEVER give up on us and He has bored the condemnation for us at the cross!
This is so precious.
I felt condemned so many times,and that many times, Jesus NEVER fails to remind me that there is therefore now no condemnation for I'm in Christ and as Christ is,so am I in this world.
Havin this truth and been proclaiming it gimme the boldness to face reality/life... Accepting myself wit all my bad tempers/habits, mistakes, imperfections, being real abt myself, is part of my life journey. Together wit attitude of rest, knowin fully that God wans to guide me thru His WISDOM, I am walkin from glory to glory to become a better katherine.
All things (good/bad) work together for my good. Rom8:28
This year is indeed a new journey of walkin in His wisdom.
Whn ppl ask me, what is my 2009 bday wish: I told them,I ask God for WISDOM.
And Jesus Himself is my wisdom.
And this year I shall see victories over victories of how Jesus my wisdom leads me thru my journey,not with hard-knocks/stubborness but wit discerning spirit.
This is gonna be good, in Jesus name, AMEN
princess@too blessed, Loved. ^-^
juz came back from ma fren'z house.
we watched "facing the giants" movie.
EXTRAORDINARY WOW!
10 out of 10 for the movie.
it'z a story of football team in states. they climb up from a lousy team to the state champion
winner team.
awesome.
story of faiTh.
really a "MUZ WATCH" movie.
there is one scene that i love most. it'z e scene when the coach built up the team leader.
the team leader used to be very pessimistic, believed that the team will surely loose.
so the coach asked him to do a particular exercise.
the team leader wans 30m-field length. the coach asked him to go 50m-length.
but there is smthg the coach did before the exercise started.
He closed the team leader's eyes wif handkerchief.
so the exercise began.
the coach cheered for the leader thru the whole exercice.
when the leader started to get tired, e coach shouted at him, cheered him.
the coach keep sayin "give me your best!!! dont give up! dont give up"
when the leader was nearly can't make it, the coach told him "30 steps more!!!"
the coach shouted "don't give up! hang on! 20 steps more!!! 10 steps more!!! 2steps more!!!"
till the leader collapsed. he can only said "i muz have made it 50m-length" while actually
he made it MUCH MORE! he went thru the whole length of the field.
and the coach told him... "u made it throughtout the whole field!"
tiz leader thot, he only made it 50m-length while he made it MUCH MORE!
and the reason is becoz he CAN NOT SEE his circumstances.
if his eyes were never been closed, he wud haf stopped the race when he was at 50m-length.
the coach told him, dun b pessimistic. u could do MUCH MORE than u think and see.
"would u help me to make it thru for this team?"
it was great scene for me.
true enuff, when we see things gg on, most of e time, we'll feel down and tell ourselves,
thiz wont do. i will nv make it. we limit ourselves.
but i love thiz movie. the coach got all the team members to think that they do the game
for the Lord! if they win, it shall praise Jesus. if they loose, it shall praise Jesus.
the coach said "so give ur best to the Lord and haf fun (during the game)"
they lost a game much later after they have achieved so much.
at first the coach was very sad. he keep sayin that his team members deserve more.
after they have gone thru so much, they deserve more.
and God does a miracLe.
i shall let u all watch it urself. it'z truly WORTH IT to watch.
and im sooooooo very very blessed aft watchin it. thanks so much vero! ^^
beloved+favored_princess@tooblessed
"are you working or studyin?" the lady asked me.
i answered. "oh workin ^^ "
she replied. "because you look so young" (wow by grace, AMEN! n praise Jesus)
i told her "yeah, when we serve in children ministry, we will look young."
then i smiLed.
today i went to new servers' training.
su said "inspiring"
and i agreed wif u, su.
i feel the whoLe training, not only equip me as a server, but it reli speaks to me
personally.
-fearfully and wonderfully made by God-
thiz line hits me!
throughout tiz week, i feel overwhelmed. to a point whereby i said "Daddy God, i'm
tryin... but seems i can't feel the love"
and this whole training session speaks to me and ministers to me to feel that PERFECT
LOVE again.
yeah, i'm fearfully and wonderfully made ^^
im so precious. beloved princess...!!!
i can "proclaim" again that i feel so blessed that God brought me to NCC.
not only that, He puts me to serve in children church.
kidz juz somehow lift me up!
one of the sunday, when i was serving, one of the girL came to me and said,
"teacher kat, u wan me to massage u?"
man... that'z HEAVENLY blessing!
normally when i feel v tired, i will ask one of my closest fren to massage me.
(if im at jkt, will definitely go massage)
but tiz lil angel juz came and offered me!
i feel v blessed but told her, "later k?" coz i wan her to focus on the service ^^
tat'z only one exampLe.
im totally agree wif t.sharon when she said... kidz haf no limitation!
they can haf SUPER GREAT FAITH!
and as i listen to that, i feel that we shud be like a KID when we come to Daddy God.
and when Daddy told us "do not worry! do not fear! I know the best for u"
we shall purely believe without worryin or askin "wad if??"
juz diz afternoon, i was reminded about tiz story:
there was a lil boy. one time he went to his grandma's house for the whole day.
and when evening comes, it rains so heavily. so the grandma told e boy, "how r u gg
to go back home, dear?"
then not long after that, the boy's daddy came to pick him up. Daddy wear a super
big RAIN COAT. and Daddy covers his lil boy wif the BIG raincoat. then Daddy+the boy
ran back home.
throughout the journey back home, the boy can't see anything. it was so dark inside
the raincoat! he only see his feet, daddy's feet.
the boy can shout and told his daddy... "Daddy i dun wanna b inside the coat.
it'z sooooo dark, i cant see anything"
but the boy din say the sentence.
the boy juz believe (without doubt) in his daddy.
the moment after that, they were back home safely. and daddy un cover the raincoat.
this story reminds me about DAddy God's love.
when we r in the "valley", everything looks so dark. we can't see anything.
but actually, even throughout thiz period of time in our life, Daddy God covers us
wif His HUGE raincoat. protect us from the heavy rain.
tho it was so dark inside the coat, tho we can't see anything, but believe our Daddy
God. trust HIM without doubt, juz as the lil boy (juz as a child's pure heart),
that we will reach home (we will went out of the valley) safely.
i feel i shall learn more from the kids. how to trust God, how not to haf worry,
how to LET GO, how to juz purely BELIEVE. ^^
btw im sooo very happy tonite. juz finished watchin korean movie and feel refreshed.
haha... it was a very good show. lurve korean shows!!! aja aja fighting!!!
btw happy blessed servin tomorrow for WOW TEAM, ROCK KIDS. you all ROCKZ!!!
JESUS rockz!!! lurve ya aLL...
haf a blessed lovely nite everybody. Jesus loves you. ^^
blessed+favored_princess@tooblessed
yest i read Joel Osteen book.
lessons that i learn:
everyday remind myself tat i'm Daddy's BELOVED+FAVORED princess. hee.
tat i'm e righteousness of God in Christ, therefore no condemnation!
i'm greatly blessed, highly favored, deepLy Loved.
i know that Daddy God LOVES everyone.
but Daddy God LIKES mi hee.
ps prince said, even when smtms u dun feel it, but still keep those FACTS in my
mind, heart, souL.
yeahhh... i love to b a princess. ^^ princess.. princess.. princess..
i like it soooooo much when su calls mi princess. hee (*hugz* su)
and smtms pris ozo calls mi princess... or silly princess (I AM NOT SILLY =p)
today im gonna prepare for tomorrow's interview.
elaine said: all things work for good.
law said: blessed 2nd interview.
i said: if God has opened the doors, NO ONE can shut it down.
yeahhhh...
anyway, i wanna go for band practice later...!!! but dunno shall i or shall i
not go, becoz tomorrow morning i gotta go for interview.
definitely wont be able to join for supper, but at least can praise&worship?
hmm... i shall see how my interview preparation goes.
but i wan i wan i wan i wan i wan to goooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo!!!
beloved+favored_princess@tooblessed
for e past few months, after encountering TRUE GRACE, i learn to deal wif failures.
to be honest, i think since young, i have never been trained how to deal wif failures.
most of e time, i will "run away" or "throw" it to someone else.
yeah... it'z that bad.
i used to get things that i wan, quickly. pampered gaL. tat'z very true.
so everytime when things don't go as i wish, i will react in such a way, either:
-i point someone else for doing wrong things
(smtms throw out my anger)
or...
-i will condemn myself, punish myself for not doing things perfectly.
but these past few months, i learn to be REAL.
i learn to deal wif failures instead of "reacting" in the way i have mentioned above.
one lesson that i truly learn is when i ask teacher R abt hitting right note,
He said... "u can go off tune (fail) for the first time, can still fail the second
time, but by the third time, u will know how to do it!"
the problem is ... whether i DARE to try and DARE to accept it if i fail (if i hit
the wrong note).
i thot about it n compare the worst case scenario.
if i try, and i fail... i still have a chance to improve and to get it right.
(not always muz be 3times...)
but if i never try in e first place, what can i get? i will never know whether i can
get it right or not.
so... might as well try. at least i still have a chance to get it right.
it'z juz as the story of "Peter walks on water"
do u know that... if peter NEVER go out of the boat, he will NEVER walk on water!
the fact is peter DID go out of the boat and he DID walk on water.
question:
did he fail?
yes, he did. coz he saw all the storms and winds, he fell.
BUT.
Jesus catched him.
another question:
does all the other diciples ever experience walkin on water?
NO! okie, they might hear from peter, how it is to walk on water, but they never
experience it themselves.
so...
WE HAVE A CHOICE.
to go out of the boat (facts that we might fail) or... to stay in the boat (and
never get to know how it feels)
for me, i have chosen to go out of the boat.
ask me why?
because i know, even when i fail... i fall inside the ark (Jesus).
juz as when peter fail, Jesus lift him up!
now... the problem for us is... we are so scared to fail.
y?
for me personally, i can call it PRIDE.
ppl might look down on me if i fail.
ppl can be family/friends/boss/anyone.
but e point is ... WHO CARES?
coz now our lives are not US anymore wad?
is Jesus inside mi.
is "as Jesus is, so am i in this world"
but y it is still diff to "apply thiz"?
coz devil always put the fear n worry in our hearts...
devil always lies to us, sayin:
"wad if..."
"wad if..."
and when we reli fail, satan (the accuser) will condemn us:
I HAF TO PAY FOR THIS FAILURE!
coz of this failure, i have dissapointed so many ppL...
hey friends! good news! we r no more under condemnation.
Jesus has paid EVERYTHING (including ALL our failures) at the cross.
if we still condemn ourselves. we r trying to tell God that Jesus'
sacrifice is not GOOD ENUFF.
but that'z not true. Jesus has FINISHED His PERFECT WORK at the cross.
lemme share a bit about "walkin on water". in one of the book that i read,
it means... "DOING EXTRAORDINARY THING that God plan for us for His glory".
"walkin in His supernatural path for greater purpose".
the only reason that satan try to hold us back from doing greater things
is because satan is soooooooooooo scared that we do GREAT THINGS for God's
glory!scared that we walk in God's DIVINE PURPOSE in our lives.
juz few weeks ago, i condemned myself when i failed one of the job interviews
i had. i was crying so badLy, feeling so condemned that i've dissapointed
my parents. and above all, i can't get rid of my PRIDE that "i can not fail"
it needs my brother's sms to "slap" me:
"why r u being so stupid? punishing urself by condemning urself. dun waste
ur time! better use ur time to go n apply more jobs, gg for more interviews"
and he's reli true!
when i realize that... i told satan. i'm nt gonna let u win! i will RISE UP
instead of mourning and i know... "God has better job for mi"
i know that "all things turn for my good!"
and hey! i'm out of the condemnation!!! and next time, i won't get into the
same trap that satan put.
satan has LOST! wekkk...
Jesus WON the battle for mi 2000years ago.
okie after writing sooo long, my point is:
i learn to deal wif failures. not to "avoid" but to OVERCOME and MOVE ON.
i realize that only by this, next time, i will not fall into the same pit
over and over again...
can u understand what im trying to write?
btw i dunno why i write about "greater things/divine purpose" while my initial
plan is juz to write abt how to deal wif failures.
anyway...do not fear(fear to fail/worry)!
let'z get out of the boat and ENJOY walkin on water.
"... but perfect love casts out fear, ..." (1John4:18)
Daddy God lurves ya soooooooooooo much!!!
beloved+favored_princess@tooblessed
everybody is unique.
yeah tiz is a good sentence to describe us, human.
was chatting juz now and suddenly rem abt tiz.
i used to compare myself wif EVERYBODY! sounds bad? yeah, it'z truLy bad.
i compare myself wif my classmates, my friends, my brother, n juz everyone.
and i see that i have so many iniquities... so many "lacking" in almost
all areas in my life.
and only after i came to know GRACE, i knew that i can not compare myself
wif anybody else. coz i am unique. the thing that people have, i might NOT
need. the thing tat ppL need, might not be useful for me.
i guess comparing myself is juz devil's way to bring me down.
but now i am learning to REST about tiz. i haf stopped comparing myself.
coz after i hear so many sharings, experience about so many things,
i realize... there is NO POINT of comparing coz i am DIFFERENT wif others.
and i started to share tiz thot wif my frenz.
one of my fren told mi... my partner is not romantic. then i told her,
"but u urself dun need a romantic partner rite?"
then she replied "yeah tat'z true".
another one.
"i rarely receive ppl's praises". i told her, "yeah coz u dun need it!
without being praised, u haf e convidence"
she said "tat'z true"
so i draw a conclusion, "God reli knows us to the very small detail of us".
Things that He provides for us, is the particular RIGHT thing that we need!
it might not be the same to others, but God knows and provides the best
that we need.
so y we need to compare?
we r SO BLESSED the way we are!!!
"But the very hairs of your head are all numbered" (Matthew 10:30)
Daddy is so detailed and He knows us by name. He cares to a point that every
hair drop of us... He knows (well, we dun even knoe)
COMPARE, BYE BYE!!!
oh one more thing, when deaconess tina prayed for mi last sat, she mentioned,
"dun compare urself wif ur peers/last time ur classmates"
i took it as a confirmation.
the only thing i will compare myself to is... JESUS
as Jesus is, so am I in this worLd.
yippie!!!
haf a blessed rest everyone, Daddy lurves ya all sooooo much
beloved+Favored_princess@tooblessed
i teared.
while watching thiz movie "a beautiful mind",
i teared.
i do agree wif uncle R. and uncLe L. that it'z a real good movie, but it'z not HORROR MOVIE.
ya of coz i knoe u r teasing mi. but i do take it, not to watch it at nite. =p
i'm so touched by e love of Alicia and e brave heart of John.
how he refused to talk anymore wif the un-real people.
how he was changed from the very proud John to a humbLe person.
and i love e last scene when he asked one of his student, iz the man (tellin him abt noble)
is real.
and i feel... Alicia is the person behind John's success, juz as John mentioned in his
noble speech.
AWESOME!!!
thanks so much uncle R. for borrowing e vcd. can i borrow other real good movie?
anyway... today is preety relaxing day... real rest almost e whoLe day. be a good gaL, drink
my medicine so that i will recover fast. Daddy, grant mi speed recovery, in Jesus name,
by Your stripes, i am healed! AMEN!!!
anyway... yeah, today big sista replied my sms (after few days). she+her family is having
holiday in Israel. woo hoo!!! i am preety sure it'z very fun+COOL!enjoy sistah!
Daddy, i ozo wan to go israel, next year, in Jesus name, AMEN!
yeah ppL, stay cool, drink more water, eat more fruitz and stay healThy.
JESUS lurves ya loadz!!!
beloved+favored_princess@tooblessed