to be honest, i think since young, i have never been trained how to deal wif failures.
most of e time, i will "run away" or "throw" it to someone else.

yeah... it'z that bad.

i used to get things that i wan, quickly. pampered gaL. tat'z very true.
so everytime when things don't go as i wish, i will react in such a way, either:

-i point someone else for doing wrong things
(smtms throw out my anger)
or...
-i will condemn myself, punish myself for not doing things perfectly.

but these past few months, i learn to be REAL.
i learn to deal wif failures instead of "reacting" in the way i have mentioned above.

one lesson that i truly learn is when i ask teacher R abt hitting right note,
He said... "u can go off tune (fail) for the first time, can still fail the second
time, but by the third time, u will know how to do it!"
the problem is ... whether i DARE to try and DARE to accept it if i fail (if i hit
the wrong note).

i thot about it n compare the worst case scenario.
if i try, and i fail... i still have a chance to improve and to get it right.
(not always muz be 3times...)

but if i never try in e first place, what can i get? i will never know whether i can
get it right or not.

so... might as well try. at least i still have a chance to get it right.

it'z juz as the story of "Peter walks on water"
do u know that... if peter NEVER go out of the boat, he will NEVER walk on water!
the fact is peter DID go out of the boat and he DID walk on water.

question:
did he fail?
yes, he did. coz he saw all the storms and winds, he fell.
BUT.
Jesus catched him.

another question:
does all the other diciples ever experience walkin on water?
NO! okie, they might hear from peter, how it is to walk on water, but they never
experience it themselves.

so...
WE HAVE A CHOICE.

to go out of the boat (facts that we might fail) or... to stay in the boat (and
never get to know how it feels)

for me, i have chosen to go out of the boat.
ask me why?
because i know, even when i fail... i fall inside the ark (Jesus).
juz as when peter fail, Jesus lift him up!

now... the problem for us is... we are so scared to fail.
y?
for me personally, i can call it PRIDE.
ppl might look down on me if i fail.
ppl can be family/friends/boss/anyone.

but e point is ... WHO CARES?

coz now our lives are not US anymore wad?
is Jesus inside mi.
is "as Jesus is, so am i in this world"

but y it is still diff to "apply thiz"?
coz devil always put the fear n worry in our hearts...
devil always lies to us, sayin:
"wad if..."
"wad if..."

and when we reli fail, satan (the accuser) will condemn us:
I HAF TO PAY FOR THIS FAILURE!
coz of this failure, i have dissapointed so many ppL...

hey friends! good news! we r no more under condemnation.
Jesus has paid EVERYTHING (including ALL our failures) at the cross.

if we still condemn ourselves. we r trying to tell God that Jesus'
sacrifice is not GOOD ENUFF.
but that'z not true. Jesus has FINISHED His PERFECT WORK at the cross.

lemme share a bit about "walkin on water". in one of the book that i read,
it means... "DOING EXTRAORDINARY THING that God plan for us for His glory".
"walkin in His supernatural path for greater purpose".

the only reason that satan try to hold us back from doing greater things
is because satan is soooooooooooo scared that we do GREAT THINGS for God's
glory!scared that we walk in God's DIVINE PURPOSE in our lives.

juz few weeks ago, i condemned myself when i failed one of the job interviews
i had. i was crying so badLy, feeling so condemned that i've dissapointed
my parents. and above all, i can't get rid of my PRIDE that "i can not fail"

it needs my brother's sms to "slap" me:
"why r u being so stupid? punishing urself by condemning urself. dun waste
ur time! better use ur time to go n apply more jobs, gg for more interviews"

and he's reli true!
when i realize that... i told satan. i'm nt gonna let u win! i will RISE UP
instead of mourning and i know... "God has better job for mi"
i know that "all things turn for my good!"

and hey! i'm out of the condemnation!!! and next time, i won't get into the
same trap that satan put.
satan has LOST! wekkk...
Jesus WON the battle for mi 2000years ago.

okie after writing sooo long, my point is:
i learn to deal wif failures. not to "avoid" but to OVERCOME and MOVE ON.
i realize that only by this, next time, i will not fall into the same pit
over and over again...

can u understand what im trying to write?
btw i dunno why i write about "greater things/divine purpose" while my initial
plan is juz to write abt how to deal wif failures.
anyway...do not fear(fear to fail/worry)!
let'z get out of the boat and ENJOY walkin on water.

"... but perfect love casts out fear, ..." (1John4:18)

Daddy God lurves ya soooooooooooo much!!!

beloved+favored_princess@tooblessed